I am an impatient person. But remarkably I have been waiting so patiently all these while. I have been waiting for someone whom I don't even know who he is, where he is, how he looks like, what his personality is and what he likes. I don't even know whether have I already met him, if not, when will we be meeting, where will that be, how will we meet and sometimes I even doubt whether does he ever exist.
Not that I've been deliberately sitting here doing nothing but just waiting for him. My life still continues and is filled up with all sorts of activities that I'm supposed to do and they're keeping me busy while waiting. However I do find myself investing a lot of energy and effort in being attentive to every possible encounter and acquaintance that he may appear suddenly in any of my activities. I am even giving 'him' priority as one of my consideration factors in every decision and plans of my life. It's just like I will try my best to stay at home in case he suddenly knocks on my door. Even if I have to go out, I'll make sure I return as soon as possible. I have to think twice before leaving the house for Place A and think even more times from Place A to Place B. Will he appear right at the moment I've left this place and therefore miss out each other?
Despite waiting, there's no sign of him yet! It's complete clueless of his arrival. The more I'm aware of my awaiting, the more disgruntled I am. I feel that I'm losing my joy of enjoying what I'm doing just because I'm constantly checking out for his possible arrival. I could have explored more at Place A, B or more if only I didn't have to gallop back home just because I fear of missing his arrival. I would even love to indulge in exploring different routes of each of my journey and in taking detours in meeting with different people and experiencing many more new things.
Time is passing quickly. I don't want to find myself regretting at the end of the day of this life that I didn't live my life fully and I didn't zero in on all other activities of my life, which I would love to just because I was awaiting for someone.
I'm not going to diverge my attention in waiting anymore even though I wasn't even deliberately waiting. I'll now freely leave the house and just immerse myself in whatever that interests me. I want to cherish everyone I meet and apprize every scene I pass by. I'm not shutting the door though. When I'm away taking my time doing my own things freely, I'll still leave my door open. I'm not saying I've given up in waiting patiently. I just don't want to wait awaiting and waste my precious time. If he finally arrives, he'll be able to hear/read my voice message/door message that goes like this.
" You're finally here! Though it took you much longer time than I thought, I'm glad that you're here at last. I'm in the middle of my odyssey. Come and join Miss Jade's adventure if you are keen. If not, feel free to leave a message and I'll get back to you once I'm back and we can arrange for our next meet up. By the way, you must be exhausted too in finding your way here. The house is not locked and be my guest. Seeyeah. :) "
Miss Jade's adventure will continue and she'll share with you if there's anything interesting pops up in her adventurous trips. In the case if he didn't manage to find his way to her house, then Miss Jade has nothing to lose too because she has tried to make the best out her life. *grin*
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I like this Chinese song "Who am I waiting for?" (我等的人会是谁). I'd been playing it again and again and I'm sure you could figure out the reason. It's a nice song but now I enjoy other songs too and there're too many good songs out there. Oh, you can click on the link to listen to it. Happy listening. :)
♥ every page of my imagination
