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Monday, February 26, 2007 @5:35 PM

I'm so confused by the genetic pool of my family. I guess the burning curiosity has pushed me to do a genetic-related research topic.

My grandmother who brought me up since the day I was brought home from the hospital, told me numerous times that her neighbors thought that I was some Eurasian judging from my fair skin and my brown hair. Few weeks ago I went to a hairdresser and had my hair chopped off. There were two other Chinese in the shop having their hair chopped off too at the same time. Again, my hairdresser made a remark of my brownish hair, which was unusual for a typical Chinese. It was even more funny when I looked down on the floor and found that I could easily distinguished my hair from the other two clients'.

My dad has also made similar remark that we inherited the fair complexion from his side since many people were also confused about the ethnicity of some of his siblings when they were young. Recently I made a brief visit back home for Chinese New Year. It was my first time for me to meet my aunt and her family after many years. By just looking at her six-year-old son, who apparently has brown hair and very fair skin, I would also mistaken him as Eurasian.

Many Asians are intolerence of lactose and/or alcohol. Once again, our family or at least I myself fall into the minority. I surprised many Europians colleagues of mine when they saw me eating cheese and drinking wine.

Interestingly, I also inherited the wet-type of cerumen (ear wax) from my dad. Are you aware that there are two distinct types of cerumen, the wet-type and the dry-type? Studies found that Asians and Native Americans are more likely to have the dry-type, whilst Caucasians and Africans are more likely to have the wet-type.

Although I am as puzzled as before about the genetic traits of my family, I still find it fascinating. If I were to start my own research laboratory, I would start a research on the genetic trait of my pedigree. Anyone wants to sponsor my research?

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Thursday, February 08, 2007 @12:47 PM

I had been struggling hard from not being drown in the tides lately. I have been pondering a lot of things and trying to make some plan(s) after my degree. The more I ponder the more I feel the fear and frustration; the uncertainty of my future. At the same time, waves of the low tides at work made me lost my enthusiasm; I mean not getting sufficient supports and guidance from my three supervisors is certainly not helpful, comparing with my peers in the aspect of hardwork paid and achievements is definitely the most unwise thing to do. And when a person is already drowning in all the negativities, everything perceived is most likely grayish and dark as well. Then all of a sudden I began to doubt more and more about my capability at work. Am I that stupid? Am I not fit in this field? Why is it so unfair that some of my peers who need not work as hard yet their get to publish their research a lot easier in a better score journal than I do?

I was well aware that I was drowning in the tides. Many observed the unhappy side of me. Then one evening while sitting in the office, JG casually initiated a conversation with me. He too did feel the frustration side of me as of late. I do not quite remember the entire conversation. But there is one line or I would say the gist of the little pat talk was, "You may feel it is unfair that some people who did not work as hard scored better than you. But trust me, your hardwork will be paid off sooner or later. Even if you change your career, your experience now will help you get through the ups and downs of life later. I know by telling you this still doesn't make you feel better. But this is how it is. Stop thinking about the negative sides now; it'll only drain off your energy. Meanwhile you should just try to relax and take it easy."

JG did not say anything philosophical. I knew it before. But as I said, when a person is drowning, you may not be that sensible. Plus, the low tides did not only come from work/degree. There are other things I had been pondering. But after some time, I felt that I should have courage to face the uncertainty of the future. After all no one can predict the future. I should view it as an adventurous ride. Well after all, the tides, the regular rise and fall is the law of nature.

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