I refuse to accept the truth. Regardless of how hard I try, the truth is still the truth. The clock is ticking fast and the next thing I realize is it's already approaching the end of October of 2005! There's so much to do and so little time. Plus we are not as efficient as the machines. All the interruptions, breaks we take in between work, unavoidable procrastinations, bleh whatever factors we name, are further delaying all works that need to be accomplished.
During these past few months I've been zooming in on work and have sacrificed a lot of time in catching up with friends I haven't met for a long while. Needless to say I've also been putting off plans for initiating regular workouts and going for a foreign language class.
I was all getting ready for my trip today. Then I received a call from my coauthor aka my senior. He was checking up on me regarding my projects. Well, not that I am obliged to report to him nor does he have such influence upon making me work harder/better. While talking to him over the phone, I realized shockingly that I haven't been accomplishing that much work as I thought!
Of course the issue that concerns me now is not how much I want to accomplish or I feel upset because I wasn't attaining much. In actuality, I feel myself a busybee all these while. I have such overwhelmingly urge to do many things in my mind, both work-related and outside work. However I find myself buried with waves of these things yet I'm not concentrating to get them done one by one. You know the spinning round and round feeling? I feel that I'm getting exhausted and dizzy spinning around at the same spot and finding hard to balancing myself instead of making small step moving forward.
I want to stop spinning. I want a vacation. I want to spend sometime to socialize with my friends. I want some personal time not doing anything. Then I want sometime reformulating the thoughts in clearing all mist of the work in my mind. I can't have all the cakes and eat them at the same time while finding myself eyeing ice-creams, fruits and chocolates. Yo, am I a little greedy?
Or maybe I can have all my cakes, ice-creams, fruits and chocolates if only there were 72 hours per day. Ah....in my dreams! *lol*
♥ every page of my imagination
