I thought no one would notice. It should not be that obvious. But... I was wrong.
Okay, I have to admit that lately I was feeling a bit low and exhausted physically. Nothing dramatic nor serious happened, I was just trapped in the mood cycle, which I always try to avoid. And I was overtaken by a sudden wave of tiredness. Anyway, during moments like this, I realize I tend not to smile as much as I usually do or as chirpy as I used to be. But overall I still greet people whenever I see them with a brief courteous smile. I didn't expect anyone would notice the difference because I don't go around talking about my low tides or even revealing it in my gestures deliberately.
So NK did notice my slight inner mood swing. He casually asked me whether was everything going on well for me lately. I was a bit surprised that the little mood fluctuations I am experiencing in my heart was noticeable to people surrounding me. He explained that he didn't hear my usual loud guffaw over little things and my singing along with the songs playing from the radio. Since he has noticed me being different than the usual me, I am pretty sure a few others have noticed that too. It is just that NK did not think I would be offended if he asked. That's really nice of him in showing his concern.
It is really strange how our emotions can be noticeable through little things we do without revealing much. The most interesting bit is how the different emotions will bring different vibes to the people surrounding you even though you do not reveal it on purpose. I enjoy bringing good vibes to people by putting up a smile and most of the time a loud laughter. My grandmother used to tease me for not being lady-like enough when I was young. "You better stop laughing that loud. Your laughter will scare away guys who might be interested in you." On the other hand, my dad doesn't mind my joyful laughter. He said, he actually feels the mirth through listening to me laugh. Of course I have to agree with him. *teehee*. Bringing good vibes to everyone surrounding me is what I really want. Who really cares about superficial guys who run away from me just because of my merry sound of laughter?
It is difficult to put a grin on our face when we are sad or tired. But have you tried to make a few attempts in smiling even if you don't feel like it? Been there, done that. I found that it's not that difficult to feel the lightness after smiling. After a while, the low feelings will gradually be neutralized or faded away and we'll be out of the blue loop again.
So remember to bring the smile with you wherever you are. A mirthful smile can really make a difference. With this mentioned, yes, the usual ebullient Jade is back. :) I hope you have found your ebullience self too. You bringing good vibes to people = People bringing good vibes to you
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