I'm not ready, yet. I think.
We have been having two continuous heavy snow falls. Needless to say everyone has put on themselves with all winter gears whenver they go out, except me. No, maybe I exagerated a little. I was mentally expecting and in fact welcoming winter especially for the snow. But I can't emphasize enough about my permanently activated laziness gene. One of its byproducts is the laziness of taking out all my winter gears from the wardrobe. Whoa! How did I survive since the first snow fall? Well, due to my laziness, I've not kept my winter jackets and my snow boots since my last use. Other than that, I've been just going around without gloves and scarfs and even my beanies. Yet, I haven't felt the necessity to succumb my laziness because I can still withstand the cold frost with my natural insulator. *lol* Well, all in all I guess I'm just not ready for a lot of events that are rolling in.
As time is passing each day. I was once again reminded by my supervisor that I'm now approaching half way to my degree. Geez, I thought I was still a young sprout not long ago. "When do you want to do your half-way examination?", she asked. It took me a 10-second to answer this. I should be excited and happy because she might be thinking I was ready. "I am not ready yet, I think." She smiled and said, "You will, by then." So much so that I was glad that my supervisor had confidence on me, I really felt that I was not ready.
"When are you ready?" We are constantly approached by this question and we poss this question to certain people too. "I am not ready yet." serves a very good excuse as well to turn down a lot of things including marriage. But when is the time we are really all set ready for something? Probably never or quite a while. Can we measure how much more we are ready, not? Maybe at the most we can get the indication from the guesstimate.
We will only feel we are ready when we have the confidence. So when will that be? Well, it is rather difficult to estimate. The confidence level is gradually accumulated each day. And then at one point, we'll just feel that, "Yes, I am ready now.". But that doesn't mean we'll be ready without putting effort in the preparation and just wait for the time to come (factors of all aspect and the confidence are necessary). Time will pass but if we are not (willing) mentally prepared, we'll never be ready. Well, it is okay that now we are not ready for *whatever* we are aiming for. Don't forget we're actually working on it little by little. We'll get there one day.
I was supposed to put this post up 24 hours ago. Well, I wasn't ready to complete the composition before work. This is not new news huh? See, alas I've got it posted up now, 24 hours later, tho. *lol*
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