I wonder how many of us do find ourselves lucky. We are so lucky because many of us are living in a place rich of resources on earth in this era.
She exclaimed, “Geez, these people have never been in a poor lab. Wait till they work in one and they’ll be so thankful to what they are having now!!”
My sister who is 2 years younger than me has been suffering mid-child syndrome. Being the second kid in the family, the attention seems to focus on the eldest child. Well, not quite. But that was what she perceived.
One thing for sure though, my parents and the elder ones in my family placed all responsibility to the eldest child. As far as I could remember, I was taught to take care of the younger ones. At home, I being the eldest had to answer the phone and had to help to make sure everything was in order, considering the fact that I was only a few years old. When I started school and my second sister joined me later on, I was instructed that I had to take care of her. Yep, they expected a 6 year-old to take care a 4 year-old at the kindergarten.
One would expect my sister would have gone through the same "training" from my parents after the birth of my 3 rd sister. Well, that was not really the case; my family somehow just bypassed her and promoted me with more responsibility. Naturally my second sister gradually perceives that she's not capable of taking up responsibility in the family and subsequently even started thinking she must be "not good" until she did not get the attention that every kid is getting. Her perception remains even till today. I could remember when I was at Grade 1; my mom and aunt forced me to participate some story-telling competition (refer previous post). Two years later when my sister was in Grade 1, she just mentioned that she's nervous and did not want to participate. My mom and aunt just let her go easily. Strangely enough, it turned out that my second sister is the only in the family who hasn't been on stage for any story-telling competition. Sure, they were just story-telling competitions, big deal not? But all these little things accumulated and formed a picture in my sister's mind. She perceived that no one cares for her. Everyone thinks she's incapable because of the little expectation from her and hence the mid-child syndrome.
Is that true that no one in my family cares and pay attention to my second sister? As a third party, I know my parents, my grandmother and my aunts do care a lot about her, and it's even more than some of us in the family. She's actually my grandmother's favorite. My aunts treat her like their little daughter. But she never felt it that way. Who is to blame for this? My sister? My parents?
If only my parents were aware of it and tried a different way to show their care and love to my sister. If only my sister tried to perceive the matter from a different angle. She sure would not have felt she’s been loved less, cared less or paid attention less.
I received two theses today. Yep, I did that again; I flipped to the acknowledgement section. Out of expectation, I found my name in both theses. This is actually my first time acknowledged by someone outside my laboratory. When I first arrived till the last students defended, I was acknowledged in those theses because it is a “rule” to mention everyone from your own group/lab. You just have to out of courtesy and by tradition. But these two students, one from another laboratory at the same floor and the other from another floor are not obliged to do so.
It is another decision time for her and in a way, for the family. It is time for my youngest sister to decide what she wants to do in her life or to the least what she wants to do in the next couple of years. She has to decide what course she wants to pursue at college (and which college).
Few weeks ago, I was chatting with another doctoral student in my lab, EF. EF is completing her degree end the end of this year.
Me: Oh, so are you going to look for a job in industries or pharmaceuticals?
EF: No, not at all. I want a total change.
Me: What exactly do you want?
EF: Well, I am interested in arising public awareness about cancer. I wonder whether I can get a position in some non-profit organization for cancer.
Me: Since when did you know you’re not interested in pursuing a career in research?
EF: The moment I started
Me: Oh…
EF: Yea, I know I’ve wasted all these years to work on a degree that I won’t be able to apply for my career. It’s funny. I’m starting new at the age of 32! I should have just gone directly to a job that I have interest in from the beginning.
Me: I don’t see it as wasting time. The training and skills obtained from these few years from your PhD will apply later on. Since you’ve done research and have a good understanding about the scientific research, you can convey proper message to the public about what is exactly going on in the scientific world and liaise both worlds to assist in winning the battle against cancer.
Do you think if you put two championship players for singles to form a doubles team will win the match? Not really. Why not? It actually requires additional skills other than skillful shots and stamina for double.
For doubles, you’re playing the match with your partner. It’s teamwork. When it comes to doubles the compatibility of the two players’ matters more. One can’t outperform the other. Neither can one slack off and do nothing. Both need to have constant communication and discussion before, throughout and after the match for analyzing and looking for cues in order to defeat the other team and thus win the match. Sometimes the game progresses too fast, different communication than verbal communication is desired. If you know your partner well, you’ll instantly know his/her signals and hence respond spontaneously.
Of course with more practice and as time goes by, the communication between the team of two will get better and better. Still compatible partners don’t come by that easily. Yet the compatible team will still not win the match if there is no communication, interaction and understanding going on throughout the match and during practices/trainings. It doesn’t just come like that if you want to win the match or tournament.
And most of the time, it is not about winning the game. You and your teammate (partner) have to enjoy the training process, the game, the match, the tournament and even the bonded friendship.
Not only has this simple tactic applied doubles for sports and games, but to a relationship and/or marriage. But more effort is even needed for the latter because those two are not games but commitment and hopefully a lifelong commitment. Well, unless you plan to change your “teammate” all the time.
“Momma, can someone tell me what love is all about?”
It is difficult to describe the relationship between my mom and I. We were not that close, sometimes although physically we used to be very close. Thus sometimes I do think we are close, at least closer than my dad and I, sort of.
“When you get there, text me so that I know you’re safe.”
“Give us a call when you’re back to Country D.”
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What do you do when you are given a thesis written by someone?
Me? The first page I read is the Acknowledgement of course!
What?! That’s nothing wrong about it right? Many people do so too!
All right, I guess it does sound kind of pathetic to find out that most people are not so interested in reading your 4-5 years of masterpiece - the little book aka the thesis.
Why am I so interested in the acknowledgement section? Shouldn't we appreciate more of the dedication of the person? Come on, if you spent those 4-5 years or more of your life working super hard on a particular topic, if you’d been sweating and sobbing through frustrating and tough moments when you were hitting the bottleneck, if you’d been unwillingly neglecting your family and loved ones because you had to spend time cranking out something to form the content of the little book otherwise you would just have to spend longer time, if you’d been ditching your friends living like a hermit especially when you didn't even have time to eat and sleep, socializing was such a luxurious matter; isn’t that natural that you want people to read about what you have done after all those sacrifice??
Well, I certainly want everyone who picks up my book read my work, at least they should read the summary/abstract of the whole book. Yet, why am not I doing the same when I pick up someone else's thesis?
Okay, okay, I admit I am as busy-body as you, you and you *pointing to everyone*; I want to know who have given support and encouragement to this person when he/she was going through all ups and downs for all those years. I have found some parts of the acknowledgement of some thesis very sweet and at times touchy too.
I am already thinking about whom I want to thank and how the composition should sound albeit I am still pretty far away in writing my own little book. While listening to Monica’s “For you I will”, I felt like drafting some parts of this section of my book already (that is IF I am going to end up having one later). I'm borrowing the lyrics...
When I’m feeling lost in the night,
When I feel my world just ain't right
Call on you, you will be waiting
Count on you, you will be there
Anytime the times get too tough,
Anytime my best ain't enough
You'll be the one to make it better,
You'll be there to protect you,
See me through,
You'll be there and there is nothing
you won't do.
You will cross the ocean for me
You will go and bring me the moon
You will be my hero my strength
Anything I need
You will be the sun in my sky
You will light my way for all time
Promise me,
For me you will.
You will shield my heart from the rain
You will let no harm come my way
Oh these arms will be my shelter
No these arms won't let me down,
If there is a mountain to move
You will move that mountain for me
You’re here for me, you’re here forever
You will be my fortress, tall and strong
You'll keep you safe,
You'll stand beside me, right or wrong
You will cross the ocean for me
You will go and bring me the moon (yeah, yeah)
You will be my hero my strength
anything I need (you will be..)
You will be the sun in my sky
You will light my way for all time
Promise me
For me you will
And…
For you I will, lay my life on the line
For you I will fight, oooooh
For you I will die
With every breath, with all my soul
I'll give my world
I'll give it all
Put your faith in me (put your faith in me)
And I'll do anything
Thank you for crossing the ocean for me
Thank you for bringing me the moon
Thank you for being my hero my strength
Anything I need
Thank you for being the sun in your sky
Thank you for lighting my way for all time
Thank you for giving your promise to me
Thank you for everything.
For you, I have made it through finally.
Eh, this is a little too treacly sentimental; those promises aren't even applicable to me. I should have transformed the urge of writing in completing a manuscript, if I truly want to have a chance of writing a real acknowledgement section in my own little book later! Go get your work done, girl!
“I started drawing and painting …and I think I enjoy it!”
Whenever I am going through some dilemma, whenever I have something lingering in the back of my head, whenever I have problems that I need to deal with, whenever I need to make some decisions, whenever I am lost…I talk to certain people who I trust for some wise, sensible, logical opinions/advice.
Thus far, I have pretty good and patient listeners and councilors. But no matter how great their advice is to me, I realize in the end I am still the only one who has to face and deal with whatever that is bothering me. Even with the best solution given, if I did not want to make the next step, I would still remain trapped in the situation.
“Are you looking for Street A?”
I nodded.
“Oh, that’s just close by. Walk straight and you’ll find Street A on your right.”
But if I am hesitated to march forward, I will never reach Street A, even if it is just yards away. Same thing happens I heard some really great advice, if I am reluctant to take the advice into action, nothing could be resolved.
Of course not all advice or opinion given guarantees the cure to our situation. Advice could be inappropriate as it came from another individual who’s not in our shoes. Opinion can be somehow subjective due to personal preference and personality. Every situation regardless how similar it seems to be compared to previous examples and cases, is still unique. Hence, no one solution-for-all. I have a good example for this. We have an experienced cytogeneticist working with us for several months. She told me she’s having problem in getting her project moving. I have worked on the same technique before. So I talked to her and tried to find out the root of the technical fault. She explained to me that another postdoc told her his method, thus she followed his way. But it turned out that his method is completely different than hers. She’s worked on the same technique for many years and she has never had problem until this time.
“Maybe you should stick to your own method since you know it has worked before.”
“It’s your project and you know it best. Just do what you feel most comfortable with.”
That’s right. It is our problem; we have to decide how we are going to deal with it. We have to make our next move for the next decision. Advice and opinions serve as a guidance and support. Having a friend telling me, “You’ll be fine.” “You’ll get there.” and stuff won’t help in actuality unless I take the encouragement and support and transform them into action.
If you don’t think the opinions you’ve gotten are good enough for you. Then you just have to go for the one you think is best for yourself (make your own decision). No one is responsible for us other than ourselves. We just have to be confident in marching forward in our own comfortable way/pace, while others cheering and supporting along side. We'll not reach the destination if we lack confidence or refuse to move regardless how confident the rest are for us.
Sometime last year, I was having lunch with my boss. There was a Vietnamese doctor who grew up in the West sitting at the table. We started chatting.
He asked, “Do you know how to cook rice?”
Cook rice?? I starred at him trying to figure out what he meant exactly.
“Yeaaa…”
“Oh you really know how to cook rice?”
“Do you mean the rice that we eat? Yes!”
“That’s good. How do you cook it?”
“Eeerrr well, isn’t that simple? You just scope some rice grain and put into the rice cooker. Then you wash the rice a few times and add some water and then press the ‘cook’ button. Wait for 20 minutes or a bit more, the rice is then ready to eat.”
“Noooo, I don’t mean cooking rice using rice cooker, but using a normal pot. That’s the tricky bit! You have to watch the pot closely. You can't let it cook for too long because the rice would burn at the bottom of the pot. But if you don't cook long enough, the rice is not cooked properly.”
“Yeah, you’re right; that’s too much work. Good thing is I always bring with me a rice cooker wherever (which country) I move to.”
I regard my dad as one of my mentors albeit he is not aware of this. He always share his perspectives based on his own realization or observations. Every now and then he will give me some pep talks. I remember there was once he said something like this, "Life is no doubt really short; but the short duration of 60-70 years will still make you feel as though it were long especially when you are facing a lot of hurdles. But what makes you get through in the end is not intelligence, not luck solely but your determination."
There is certainly some wisdom of insights from my dad's words. He must have gone through a lot in order to come to that realization. He is not a super smart guy, nor had he received any high level education. He just has been through a lot in life, hence comes to that realization. My dad started working way before he finished his high school education. He started his career from scratch and then expanding it to support his parents and his other siblings. He told me he barely knew anything when he started and he was hit by many obstacles but all he relied on was just purely determination to make him that far. Close to 40 years have past, he told me although he has passed his peak, he is not giving up yet because he is confident and determined that he still has many more peaks coming soon. Ah, how do I not admire my dad right?
All right, I don't mean my dad is a successful person and I have no intention of convincing you to take him as your idol. Sorry, my dad's my idol. He's mine eh! All I am trying to say is I've seen most of his ups and downs especially his career, my dad has never given up. There was once that I was so concerned about him; he just turned back to me and told me that we should be determined and everything would be fine.
Let's take a look at other successful role models; yes, these people are intelligent, hardworking or perhaps luck was by their side to make that miracle happened. But if you take a closer look, that miracle moment did not happen just like that, they probably have had more encounters than any of us. Yet what makes them more successful is because they have more determination.
Determination is really the key, even for our search of happiness. There are ups and downs along the journey, yours and mind. But if take them as something positive and are determined about that, sure we’ll feel the happiness. It is hard to strive out of negativity, but with the determination there, we can surely make it and once we’re out of that lope, happiness is just in front of us.
Being determined is always not that easy. You need to be determined to maintain the determination. But once you’re done with that, nothing is really impossible anymore.